i have shifted to:

www.xanga.com/blessed_princess_of_God

see you at the new location! *winks*

i'm being naughty in consumer behavior class!!!! yes, slap me!!! hehe. but i'm so tired my eyes are closinggg so i need to blog or else i'll fall asleep. see??? there is a valid justification for my action!!!!

cutting the crap out, it's s.a.d. when you realize that someone finds you a burden or hindrance. sometimes, i think that it's best to keep a critical distance from others. because when you're close to someone, inevitably, you grow to rely on the person and many people don't like it. only God can listen to us endlessly and never tire. because He loves us so much. human beings will always be self-interested to a certain extent at least.

*you* are so sweeetttttt. your future girlfriend and wife will be so fortunate. how i wish you were my brother... but for now, i am glad to have you as my friend.  you're so patient with me during this healing process and you've never said no to my requests for help. i really appreciate *you* as a friend and *your* healing touch during this period.

ethics presentation went surprisingly well........ prof white said our presentation was "exceptional" and "exemplary". he later went on to tell the class that our team's presentation was the standard the other teams should strive towards. it came as a surprise though because all of us were either extremely busy or concerned about something. nonetheless, we pulled through because thankfully the team was quite synergized. synergy is soooo important.

life is alright, really. the storms are within. but i will overcome!!!!!!

yessss today started off with project meetings (even though it was a saturday boooo!). time flew by though probably because i was very involved during the meetings. time always seems to pass faster when you're not watching it.

after the meetings, i dashed to novena square for lunch and shopping with aunt. she bought me two new pairs of black covered up shoes and a black formal jacket (for my finishing touch class which requires us to dress up for an interview and a posh lunch). i only needed one pair of shoes, really. so i was super shocked when my aunt bought TWO!!! i like them both though!!!!!! lunch was at han's - grilled white dory fish... mmmmyummm.. healthy but nonetheless nice!!!

afterwards, i hung out with the girls!!! sheena and esther!!!! they're my darlings!!! hahas. i don't exactly remember what we did except walk and walk and walk... they ate and ate and ate (i didn't because i had to return to my aunt's house for a healthy dinner :P).. and of course we talked and talked and talked.. laughed a lot also!!! i had a great time with them.. and look forward to watching "leap years" (if i'm not wrong) with them based on the novel by catherine lim!!!

being single is actually really great in many aspects.. when you're single, you have so much more time to explore and grow... you also have more energy and time to establish bonds with the people who matter. when you're attached, your weekend revolves around the other half, and rest, family time, friends time and study time have to be compensated! of course i don't want to be single forever and ever.. but when you're young, it's pretty cooolll! once upon a time, i was so afraid to be alone and single again.. but it really isn't that bad, if not FUN!!! in the past, whenever i saw couples together, i'd feel sad... because i had noone. that stopped when leon came along BUT returned when he cheated on me and i saw other lovey dovey couples around, wondering why i could not have a man who loved me for who i was... now i am single again, i don't yearn for a boyfriend like before because i know relationships can be really painful.. just enjoying life free and happy!!!!!! *beams*

i've also decided to kill those feelings.. yea, it was fun having a crush for a while but now, it's getting into the not-so-fun stage when i start wondering if he likes me too.. and the feelings are getting deeper. besides, i've been rejected consistently all my life.. my ONLY boyfriend thus far was not that into me.. meaning i've just lost faith and confidence completely in my own attractiveness.. thus i am quite certain that more likely than not, i'll be disappointed again. at this point of time, another rejection will be detrimental to my already completely crushed self esteem and i can't afford that presently. besides he hasn't been super pro active.. and i'm starting to think that it's just wishful thinking on my part. so i'm going to be forcing myself to move on... and killing these feelings. i just want to devote myself completely to God, friends and family and career for now. and not wasting my time "chasing pavements" that lead nowhere.